65/35

Today I went back to those forbidden sites. Today I went back to the beautiful girls and buddies I'd previously. Today i don't know whether I'm feeling trapped or alive. Today I'll go back on the scales, the ones I've feared so much. It's been months since I last weighed my self... Let's see what they say.

Weight: 120 lbs
BMI: 20.0

I'm absolutely disgusted. And sick. I actually shook as I came down from the scales. 120lbs?! That's more than when I started and it was a place I swore I'd never go to again. Not too long ago I was 9lbs heavier. Almost 5 kilos heavier. I want to cry. I want to scream. I'm so confused...I've been exercising A lot more than I did before but somehow I've become a horribly obese thing. And it needs to change now.

Song of the day: 
Hey Soul Sister by Train An old classic song that I used to love singing all the time