Berlin tomorrow :O

Current weight: 113.2lbs
BMI:  19.4


It's finally half term! But tomorrow I'll be in Berlin, a somewhat dismal holiday destination mainly focused on the holocaust, I'm sure it'll be interesting nonetheless :) But I what am scared of is the food in Berlin. It's supposed to be famous for its meats and very fatty foods. I have this horrible feeling that I'll be tempted at 'trying the new cuisine' that I'll just be stuffing my face and gain about 10lbs :/ I'll be there for a bit more than a week so it might be a while until I update my blog again.


I'm still struggling with eating normally. Sometimes I get lost in the moment of eating, for example at a party. I feel happy when I get lost in the moment because I feel normal and uncaring, but that is almost immediately followed by a feeling of regret and utter self loathing the next day. The last two days I just couldn't bring myself to eat any lunch at school but as you can see that's made me weigh almost a pound less! I'll get back to that size zero...


I hope I'll be able to resist the foods in Berlin. Or just get better.


Song of the day:
Just found this whilst randomly browsing through Youtube :) sadly they don't you what the song's called :( 
Live performance of ________ by Emma's Imagination on Must be the Music 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-9YJbUSj0vo&feature=relmfu