Wednesday, 2 November 2011

Breaking. Broken. Same thing.

Weight: 111.5lbs
BMI: 19.3

I was reading this article today, and for some reason it really shook me. For example tips 10, 11, 13 and 17. I don't even know why, but I've been really sensitive recently.
http://onlypurples.wordpress.com/2008/06/23/how-to-become-anorexic/
I started taking singing lessons a few weeks ago and they were going ok. Yesterday in my singing lesson I was singing so well in the beginning of my lesson, my teacher was so impressed, I was on a high. It was like the best 15 minutes of my life. But as soon as she pointed out a mistake I came crashing down. The more I sang the song the worse I got because I was so under pressure. Until she finally said 'That was crap.' and it actually shattered me. How can a teacher even say that? I don't know how I feel. I know I don't ever wanna sing again. Ever. I'm dreading my next lesson and I can't quit cause we've already paid lessons for the rest of term.

Song of the day
If I Die Young by The Band Perry
I absolutely love the country beginning of this song <3 Again another thinspo however...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=HQ5cvZhY6qA&feature=fvwp

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