Scared.

Weight: Not allowed to measure :L
BMI: Reason above

Well I`ve been going to my counsellor a lot more often as she requests and I now have regular appointments with the nurse as well :/ but I guess either way, it`ll be my decsion whether I eat or not :S Today was so scary x_x Like I went to google on my phone on my way back from school and I searched Anorexia isn't bad. And I didn't think it was really. I'm just skipping lunch, having small breakfasts and dinners and exercising a bit more, plus the starving kinda leaves a 'pure'/detoxed feeling in me. So thenh I came across a website (link below) with a girl who thought more or less the same as me.
http://www.facetheissue.com/community/archive/index.php?t-532.html

And the posts by Allegra were really strong. And the more I read on the more scared I got. I don't want my body to eventually start eating at my heart muscles. What I'm doing can't be that bad right?! And I got even more scared today as I just felt weak the entire day and when I had a shower, literally clumps of my hair just fell out. I'd brush my hair in the shower and  then run my fingers through, but when I ran my fingers through, a massive clump of her was taken away. And that happened again. And again. Until I was too scared that I'd start going bold :S

I'm normally a sensible girl but I really don't know what to do.

'Those who risk going to far can possibly find out how far one can go.'

Song of the Day
Jar of Hearts by Christina Perry
She's got such a great voice :) I absolutely love this song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HH7WXlf9WLk